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Sounds like some fantastic goals.
Here is the rest of my story. On August 11th 2011 my oldest son hung himself in my shop. He was an employee and was working late by himself. He got a call from his long term girlfriend who was away at collage whom he had plans to marry. From what I understand she told him she had met someone else and it was over. I found him the next morning hanging from the gantry crane by a nylon sling. He was 19 year old. I dont know what went though his head. He was an amazing kid, well liked by everybody. He had close to 400 people show up for his service. 99.9 KISW the local rock station even had a moment of silence for him on air. BJ Shea the morning DJ had known him and the story hit pretty close to home. He was a big part of everything. The only one of my three boys that was here in Seattle, The younger ones lived with there mom in southern Oregon and have since they where little so I have never been a day to day part of their lives. I have really tried to develop a relationship with them but they are 800 miles away so interaction is limited.
Anyway to say its been hard on me is a understatement. Everything changed and its about that time that everything turned dark and gloomy in the world for me. I started focusing on everything that was wrong in the world and honestly since he died I have not put the energy into my shop that I once did. I used to work 12-14 hours a day and there was no place I would rather be. Now I am there just long enough to do what has to be done and often I struggle to do even that. My goals have changed, whats important has changed.
There is no great mystery why I felt like things where falling apart around me. I doubt anyone would fault me for being doom and gloom.
I really would like to simplify my life. Currently my things own me. I am a slave to my shop and taking care of all this stuff that used to be really important to me and now just part of my day to day life. Its not that I hate it, I actually enjoy what I do, however I have lost much of the passion that I had. I keep paddling. Maybe that's why I am ready for the S to hit the F, I'll have something real to deal with, focus my energy on. A reason to work hard. I am good under pressure and need things to occupy my mind.
So anyway, there is that. Probably explains a lot.
Here is the rest of my story. On August 11th 2011 my oldest son hung himself in my shop. He was an employee and was working late by himself. He got a call from his long term girlfriend who was away at collage whom he had plans to marry. From what I understand she told him she had met someone else and it was over. I found him the next morning hanging from the gantry crane by a nylon sling. He was 19 year old. I dont know what went though his head. He was an amazing kid, well liked by everybody. He had close to 400 people show up for his service. 99.9 KISW the local rock station even had a moment of silence for him on air. BJ Shea the morning DJ had known him and the story hit pretty close to home. He was a big part of everything. The only one of my three boys that was here in Seattle, The younger ones lived with there mom in southern Oregon and have since they where little so I have never been a day to day part of their lives. I have really tried to develop a relationship with them but they are 800 miles away so interaction is limited.
So anyway, there is that. Probably explains a lot.
Sounds like some fantastic goals.
Here is the rest of my story. On August 11th 2011 my oldest son hung himself in my shop. He was an employee and was working late by himself. He got a call from his long term girlfriend who was away at collage whom he had plans to marry. From what I understand she told him she had met someone else and it was over. I found him the next morning hanging from the gantry crane by a nylon sling. He was 19 year old. I dont know what went though his head. He was an amazing kid, well liked by everybody. He had close to 400 people show up for his service. 99.9 KISW the local rock station even had a moment of silence for him on air. BJ Shea the morning DJ had known him and the story hit pretty close to home. He was a big part of everything. The only one of my three boys that was here in Seattle, The younger ones lived with there mom in southern Oregon and have since they where little so I have never been a day to day part of their lives. I have really tried to develop a relationship with them but they are 800 miles away so interaction is limited.
Anyway to say its been hard on me is a understatement. Everything changed and its about that time that everything turned dark and gloomy in the world for me. I started focusing on everything that was wrong in the world and honestly since he died I have not put the energy into my shop that I once did. I used to work 12-14 hours a day and there was no place I would rather be. Now I am there just long enough to do what has to be done and often I struggle to do even that. My goals have changed, whats important has changed.
There is no great mystery why I felt like things where falling apart around me. I doubt anyone would fault me for being doom and gloom.
I really would like to simplify my life. Currently my things own me. I am a slave to my shop and taking care of all this stuff that used to be really important to me and now just part of my day to day life. Its not that I hate it, I actually enjoy what I do, however I have lost much of the passion that I had. I keep paddling. Maybe that's why I am ready for the S to hit the F, I'll have something real to deal with, focus my energy on. A reason to work hard. I am good under pressure and need things to occupy my mind.
So anyway, there is that. Probably explains a lot.
Thanks for the kind words. It's going on 4 years. I can now think and talk about it in a rational, subjective way. It took a year to kind of get to the point I was able to function at a somewhat normal level and another year before I could think or talk about it without falling apart. It has changed who I am though, I thought for a few years that eventually things would kind of go back to what was "normal" but I have pretty much given up on that.
I have been through more than one test, this was the worst. But it just goes to show that we have no promise that tomorrow will be what we expect or that planing and preperation will matter in the end. Honestly I was not sure I could recover, at one point it just did not seem possible. In the end you get up, show up and just try and do something. Then a week goes by, then a year and after three and a half its just a black hole in your past. I think I will be standing on the edge of that black hole for the rest of my life, but maybe not. I never thought I would make it out but here I am standing on the edge.
It has been a struggle to not just say F'it all and walk away. Somedays I do it for others, some days I simply pass the day thinking I can always give up tomorrow. So far I have managed to turn one more today into yesterday consistantly.
Anyway, it's another day. No reason to think at this point there will not be a tomorrow. Suit up, show up and do something, even if it's wrong.
IronMonster, I think you covered that pretty darn good, and I agree. Question to you President Roosevelt, executive order #6102, April 5th 1933, on the confiscation of gold. Do you think that people who purchase gold today, have any idea of the past history of the confiscation of gold. Kinda makes you wonder! P.s. IronMonster, Thanks for sharing some of your life, you made me cry.Well, I know what you mean but they are not Fiat. Fiat means "by decree" or "Arbitrary Order" Paper money being only worth something by the government saying it is. Silver is primarily a industrial metal in today's world, most of what has existed and been mined has been consumed. It does have a secondary market as a monetary metal but if there was no monetary demand it would still have value. Gold may not have as many industrial uses, but it has been money for 5000 years. It will be money after the dollar is no more. There is only so much of either, it cant be printed and brought into existence by the stroke of a bankers pen.
Gold and Silver can be part of what you hold with your excess wealth. It should never be the first thing you buy. Its what you buy when you have everything else covered and something left over. Real property of any sort, anything that is not paper money or numbers in a computer.
I dont think the majority of people under 40 have any real understanding of the role gold used to play in the worlds money system. The 33 gold confiscation was not about taking gold from the people, it was about taking away real money so they could attempt monetary experiments. It was about devaluing the dollar by 40% overnight and trying to spark inflation. The reason why they had to take the gold from the people is because if they held the gold, which was money at the time, then there was no way to arbitrarily reset the price of gold in relation to the dollar. Basically what Roosevelt did was create 75% more dollars for the same amount of gold. It was the QE of the day and was intended create a flood of liquidity to help get money moving again.
It also put all the "real" money in the hands of the government so it could be used in a manor that they thought would bring about recovery. Gold WAS money, the only real money. Even the paper money of the time was just a claim on gold. So by taking all the MONEY and issuing PAPER the government created the largest single transfer of wealth the world had ever seen. It then directed this new found wealth in massive programs to jump start the economy. In my opinion Roosevelt's policy's where complete and utter disasters. He was the beginning of the socialist trends that have continued to this day. I absolutely believe that the great depression would not have been so great if Roosevelt had not got his way. In 33-35 it could have went either way. With sound fiscal policy I think we would have pulled out and been in reasonable shape, however Roosevelt took money where it would have done the most good, with the people and put it where it would do the least good, the government.
Today since money is not backed by anything they can just create it out of thin air there is no need for them to confiscate private gold. The FED can print all the money they want and buy gold with it if they so choose, no different than them printing money to buy toxic mortgages and equities like they have been doing for the last 6 years