So I have had my Xds in 45 for a while now and cannot shoot it very well. The grip for me is too small and I cannot seem to control it. In light of this I have gone back to my Bersa 380 for EDC which fits me like a glove and also is a rock solid performer. What I am looking for is a Bersa/Walther/Sig style blow back in 9mm. However all my research keeps coming up empty. I love the fixed barrel and trigger system. I thought about looking for a XDs in 9mm but I fear it would be a waste do to grip size. I also have owned the much coveted shield in 9mm and did not like at all. My only other thought is the new R51, however after much research I am not willing to be one of the first to buy and experiment. Would like to have a solid performer with a good history. Anyway your thoughts on this subject are appreciated.