With the military and police guys on here I am sure you have seen worse, maybe you have a way to deal with all this. I know I sure don't. Last Saturday my best friend got rear ended, no big deal really, just kinda felt like that sucks for her, I have been there before and know its no fun. Then wednesday night rolls around, nothing out of the ordinary, i go to sleep and my G/F spends the night, I wake up to my roomate yelling for me to get up he needs help, I look outside see red light in the fog, thinking its something attacking or a fire I run to grab my .45 he opens my door and says its Cody. I put some clothes on and run into my roomate Cody's room and he isn't breathing and has no pulse. The time is 1:12 we are on the phone with 911 and as they are arriving I call Cody's dad and tell him that his son isn't breathing, the paramedics arrive, i go outside and wait for his dad. When i walk back in with the cop that just showed up the paramedics are moving slow... too slow and I get the news. Cody was dead when we found him, there was no way to recisitate him. He was 23 years old and a great fun loving guy. It gets worse, his parents arrive and we tell his parents that their only son is dead, his dad gets hysterical his mom breaks down. More cops and paramedics arrive. At this point we have 3 police cars, 1 firetruck 2 ambulances a chaplin and a county medical examiners truck at our house. People wise we have 5 EMT's 5 firefighters, 3 cops, 1 chaplin, one medical examiner myself, my gf, my other roomate, his g/f and 2 greiving parents. We were there til 4:00 AM when they finally took his body out and I left to go to my parents so i could get some sleep. It was a horrible night. I had business in seattle the next day and i figured it would be good to get my mind off it, I am depressed and saddened but trying to get past it. Thursday night at 11:00PM, not even 24 hours after we found Cody dead I get a call from my best friend saying her dad is in the hospital with congestive heart failure and he has to go on these horrible blood thiners. I won't even go into that. I wake up this morning get out of the shower and my g/f is sad, she today finds out that her grandpa broke his neck and when doing tests on him they find spots on his lungs which could be cancer. Is life ever going to get any better? I just can't imagine more going wrong at this point in life. i don't know what else to do.