I have been around firearms for ages. Grew up with them. Then had a 30 year pause - too busy with other things. Pretty active shooter for the last seven years or so. Also got a CPL 6 years ago, although I must admit I only carry when going into "red zones" - maybe once a week. I have done it many times by now but it still feels awkward. It just occurred to me that the reason it feels awkward is because I carry concealed. I am hiding something. Hiding things to me has a connotation of impropriety. Not suggesting to carry openly (which brings a whole new discussion) but just sharing a sentiment here.