Hi all, I've posted on this forum a few times before getting really great advice as I've said before, my hands are fairly small with arthritis that affects my grip. I was leaning toward the shield because of its smaller grip and in a few reviews its said the recoil is manageable for its size. I've shot a single action revolver (in .38 special, not sure model) just fine, also the M&P 22 and I believe it was the Browning high power in 9mm both "OK". The grips were a little large for me, but still manageable. Recoil on the browning was OK too after the first shot (mind you, it was my first time ever shooting something in 9mm) I did have to readjust my grip after each shot though. The only double action trigger pull I can handle (so far) was the M&P22. Single actions seem to be easiest for me. My interest is still the shield because holding it, it fits like a glove for me. I had the opportunity to shoot it but had a really hard time racking the slide and even pulling the trigger. Aside from just working on hand strength (already on it) is there anything else that I can do to the shield itself so I can practice with it immediately, then change it back once my hand strength is up to par? Recoil on the shield is a slight concern for me, I've always read that smaller guns have snappier recoil than full size guns (which makes perfect sense.) My wife shot it and she said after about 25 rounds it started to bite a little after each shot. In a defensive situation I don't expect to shoot more than 2 rounds anyway, so its more of loss of control on the first shot that does concern me. So my question is pretty much, given the known info, should I just give up on the shield for now (unless I can mod it somehow) get something else... and if I need to find something else, what would you guys recommend? Thanks in advance!